In between craziness at work, change at church, and the unknown of adoption, I have to admit that I have been thinking a lot:
Reassessing my career (updating my resume)
Trying to figure out what God is saying after my church voted 93% in favor of our interim pastor
Wondering how long it will take to be placed with a child (we keep hearing 2 years)
With all these swirling thoughts, I got thinking about JohnnyBGamer. I love how the site has morphed into more of a personal blog for me. I especially need a place, right now, to work through thoughts and share ideas. But I got thinking about the idea for a gaming-based ministry, God gave me long ago. An idea that never included:
Articles on discernment
Answering questions such as: Can Christians do ____________?
Finding a spiritual bridge between whatever game I’m playing and connecting it back to a spiritual truth (no matter how weak the link)
Justifying why I’m playing (insert game here)
I think I got lost somewhere between the idea of being a combo of a Christian Gamespot mixed with what would later become GameChurch. Somewhere along the way, I got wrapped up in running a Christian video game Facebook group (which I stepped down from last year) and wanting to compete with GameChurch (which has since become something else). I forgot that God never called me to be this online thing. He always has shown me that it is more about building relationships than playing games. The games are simply a gateway to making friends and having a conversation. People are the focus.
I’m not sure what any of the above means moving forward. But I am thankful to be able to put into words what has happened over the years. I lost the plot.
I spent this past Friday night and then most of Saturday helping my in-laws paint their new house. The existing interior pink paint was slowly transformed with different tones of blue and a splash of green for the dining room. The house is coming along (another coat of paint is needed in two of the bedrooms) and should be move in ready by this weekend. I’m excited. Nothing like new adventures.
Speaking of adventures, I keep plugging away on my job hunt. I think I’ve narrowed things down to sales, marketing, or human resources. I am definitely ready for a change out of my office manager role. Ready for a new office environment that is both emotionally healthy and challenging. Now, I just need to crack the code for receiving an application response. Could involve a U-boat in the Atlantic with Bon Jovi, who knows.
I found myself telling my son the other day something I never thought would come out of my mouth, “stop dimensional shifting!” We were playing Guacamelee! on the PS4 and had just obtained the ability to shift dimensions. The boy couldn’t stop pressing the “shift” button. Which equaled me falling, repeatedly. The joys of fatherhood.
If you have a moment, I did get a chance to host the Theology Gaming Podcast last week (which you can check out here). Had a great conversation on the topic of emotional health.
One of my fellow Theology Gaming University members sent me a copy of his book to review. The book is titled 42: Discovering Faith Through Fandom. Short and sweet review: Pick it up if you like a devotional that mixes nerdy topics with Biblical truth. Longer review incoming. Just ignore the book’s cover art in the meantime (my only criticism so far) as it does not represent the amazing content found inside.
Outside of getting to meet the boy’s teacher this week, not much else is going on. What about you?