A Friday Confession


I used to pray, God, use me however you want. I used to sing loudly, with tears in my eyes, God, where you lead, I will follow. (Tears because I didn’t want God to send me into the backwoods somewhere without air conditioning.) I prayed with a bigger picture in mind; I sang open to the will of God for my life. The subtle current of wanting adventure, thrills beyond the everyday life, thrummed beneath the surface of my prayers. As The Killers sing in their song “Read My Mind”:

I never really gave up on
Breakin’ out of this two-star town

What I was really praying was, God, I’m willing to follow you as long as it means new places, new people, and a lack of monotony. 

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When I graduated from college back in 2006, I thought I’d get married and leave Longview forever. My big plans were to go back to Southern California, get an amazing job OR start a video game ministry, and life would go on. But then economy imploded… and God has used those 12 years since graduation to shape and form me into something new. I’m not the same guy that I was, and I recognize that as being good.

Do you ever feel like Moses, living in the wilderness with his wife and father-in-law? Being prepared, by God, away from the limelight, in safety? Do you ever wonder if you are being taught to just focus on and impact those around you? I do. Our world is all about the big, the bold, the blaring Coldplay stadium anthems. Anthems that silently whisper to us that if you aren’t doing something big, in life or for God, then you are a failure.

Here is where I want to land: You are not a failure.

In the Bible, God consistently uses those the world does not know for His glory, purpose, and Kingdom. I think we have to pray that our hearts align more with Him and less with the overwhelming expectations the world and even Christian culture can put on us. You can make a difference for His Kingdom where you are, right now. You don’t even have to move. Even though Switchfoot might dare you to.



It was October 24th 1995 and with little fan fare at the time the world of Christian Music changed forever and all it took was the release of a little blue CD. This Disc started the formation of a tidal wave over the Christian Music scene and would ultimately change the way the entire world saw Christian Music. Up until October 24th, Christian Music was a sideshow, making a few crossovers with songs from Michael W. Smith and Amy Grant, but after the release of this CD and the 2 other albums that were released in the next 5 months, everything changed.

What watershed, paradigm altering album was this? The first Jars of Clay Album. Almost 15 years ago (yes we are getting that old) that little disc of 10 tracks and 1 bonus track changed everything.That album opened the door to the possibility of a Christian group making music about faith and God that could actually be better than secular music. It was a mind blowing thought that someone would actually prefer to listen to Christian music because it was better musically and lyrically instead of listening to it just because they didn’t want to hear the vulgarity that can be present in secular music.

2 months later, the tidal wave grew in strength with the release of an almost artwork less disc from a group who up until this point was a B team act that wasn’t good enough to head line shows. This album began a cultural phenomenon inside of youth groups all across the country and possible the world. Yes, The Jesus Freak Album from DC Talk was the Van Gogh to Jars of Clays Picasso. Painting with broad brush strokes with a heavy rock anthem (at least it seemed heavy at the time) this album pavedthe way for the metal and punk scenes that would later form in the Christian sub-cultures.

In February of 1996 the final push of the tidal wave that was the golden era of Christian music landed from arguably the most anticipated group of the 3. Take Me to Your Leader from the Newsboys showed everyone that we could rock just as hard at concerts as any secular band. The Newsboys brought so much energy that they were picked up by Virgin Records becoming the first Christian group to be picked up by a secular label.

In the last 15 years there are a lot of bands that have followed in the footsteps of these unlikely pioneers who were willing to take a risk in an industry that was dying of sameness and complacency. With bands like Switchfoot and others making big crossovers into the secular world our tidal wave has never been as high as it was back in 1995. While his aim was different I think that Hunter S. Thompson said it best, “And that, I think, was the handle – that sense of inevitable victory over the forces of old andevil. Not in any mean or military sense; we didn’t need that. Our energy would simply prevail. We had allthe momentum; we were riding the crest of a high and beautiful wave. So now, less than five years later,you can go up on a steep hill in Las Vegas and look west, and with the right kind of eyes you can almost see the high-water mark – that place where the wave finally broke and rolled back.”

We, the youth of Christian music, had finally tasted a win against the forces of secular music, and our world and eyes were never the same again.
Jacob Ingalls

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