A Christmas Note To Myself

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On the day before December begins,

I’d like to remind myself.

That no matter how stressful work gets,

Nor how much I miss family,

Swirling down into the depression pit isn’t worth it.

At all.

I need to focus on my family around me,

My friends,

The anticipation of the Advent season.

Spending the entire month of December, in a funk, sucks.

You know it, and your wife knows it. 

So stop it!

Break the cycle this year.

Tell depression to get off your mental lawn.

You’re welcome, by the way.

– A note from November Bryan to December Bryan.

Photo by Adam Birkett on Unsplash

Not sure about you, but December is traditionally a tough month for me. All through November, I’ve been watching depression circle around outside the fire light. Beckoning me to step away from the comforts of clarity and embrace the dark/warm fuzzy jacket of depression. Wanted to write a quick note to remind myself not to go down that path this year. I want to encourage you also to stay near the fire and pay attention to the words you are speaking to yourself. We can do this.

In the fog of Quil, drinking snot

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How was your Thanksgiving?

We spent Thanksgiving at home and invited family over. Tab cooked an amazing meal (her Pioneer Woman Stuffing being my favorite).We had a nice day with great weather outside. Got to go for a walk, play a few games (Chicken Foot being a highlight), and enjoy time spent with family. Missed my family back in SoCal/Arkansas and my youngest brother-in-law, who was away in Houston with a special somebody/her family.

I’ve had the worst cold since Thanksgiving. NyQuil and DayQuil have been my best friends/enemies. I think a combo of allergies from mowing the yard and insane temperature shifts doomed me. Wash your hands, folks. Wash your hands and perhaps wear a mask while mowing.

Got a chance to dive into Metal Gear Solid: The Phantom Pain over the holiday. Played all through the intro, where I encountered a fire horse/horseman (which was actually one of of the more normal things about the prologue):

Enjoyed watching video game’s Tarantino, Hideo Kojima, show off his craft.

There is something brave about opening a game with the protagonist in a weakened state. In this case, your character has been in a coma for 9 years only to wake up to special forces trying to kill you. Good times.

I’ve been a little gamer ADD lately. Picked up Call of Duty: Infinite Warfare last night. Nothing like boarding an expensive theme park ride a few years later. Price of admission is much cheaper ($4.50) but the thrills are just as good.

What have you been playing?

If I Hear Another Woof

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My neighbor’s dog barked all night. Sometimes their other dog would join in. No matter what, the dogs would not stop barking but for a few minutes. Sweet relief would then be interrupted by barking once more.

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You start thinking about things when you are constantly being woken up by a barking dog. I found myself flashing back to my childhood. We had two dogs at that particular point in time. Benji, a Lhasa Apso, and Chance, a Golden Retriever. They trained my family well. Any barking, late into the night, was immediately followed with someone letting them into the garage to sleep. I remember my parents not wanting the neighbors to call Animal Control on us.

They look so innocent… but they are not! The neighbor’s dogs sleep all day and bark all night. I dislike them, passionately.

The barking kept going all through the night. I wondered if the dog had treed a creature; I wondered if the dog just didn’t want me to sleep. Saturday night and Sunday night, the dogs barked. No response from the owner. No, I think they were sound asleep.

At one point I got up, padded down the hallway to the backdoor and poked my head outside, nothing. The dogs had magically quit barking in those moments. I couldn’t hear anything that might have been causing trouble, so I went back to bed. The dogs began barking again.

By 6:00AM, I think they stopped. I slept really well for about thirty minutes. Climbing out of bed to get ready for work, I felt like we had a baby. The warm shower and coffee not doing much to wake me up.

I drove to work and arrived here safely. A co-worker talked to me, I could hear an edge in my response. You could say that I mildly barked back.

Stupid dogs.

Midweek Design: Photoshop and Daigle

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Last night, I unleashed my Photoshop powers and created some slides for my church. Enjoyed listening to Lauren Daigle’s Look Up Child album while working.

Christian radio about killed Lauren Daigle for me by repeatedly playing her older music, ALL THE TIME. Daigle’s new album is fantastic though. Drawing vocal comparisons to Adele, I appreciate Lauren’s thoughtful lyrics. Give her a listen below:

Also, here are a few of the images I cooked up for church:

Welcome to The MAC

Thanksgiving 2018

The MAC Family Worship Service

Hope ya’ll are having a fantastic Wednesday! Stay warm.