Life Update: Dimensional Shifting

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So what’s up with you?

I spent this past Friday night and then most of Saturday helping my in-laws paint their new house. The existing interior pink paint was slowly transformed with different tones of blue and a splash of green for the dining room. The house is coming along (another coat of paint is needed in two of the bedrooms) and should be move in ready by this weekend. I’m excited. Nothing like new adventures.

Speaking of adventures, I keep plugging away on my job hunt. I think I’ve narrowed things down to sales, marketing, or human resources. I am definitely ready for a change out of my office manager role. Ready for a new office environment that is both emotionally healthy and challenging. Now, I just need to crack the code for receiving an application response. Could involve a U-boat in the Atlantic with Bon Jovi, who knows.

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I found myself telling my son the other day something I never thought would come out of my mouth, “stop dimensional shifting!” We were playing Guacamelee! on the PS4 and had just obtained the ability to shift dimensions. The boy couldn’t stop pressing the “shift” button. Which equaled me falling, repeatedly. The joys of fatherhood.

If you have a moment, I did get a chance to host the Theology Gaming Podcast last week (which you can check out here). Had a great conversation on the topic of emotional health.

One of my fellow Theology Gaming University members sent me a copy of his book to review. The book is titled 42: Discovering Faith Through Fandom. Short and sweet review: Pick it up if you like a devotional that mixes nerdy topics with Biblical truth. Longer review incoming. Just ignore the book’s cover art in the meantime (my only criticism so far) as it does not represent the amazing content found inside.

Outside of getting to meet the boy’s teacher this week, not much else is going on. What about you?

Prepare to be Stretched

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A long time ago, I almost went to Azusa Pacific University. Finances fell through, reality set in, and I ended with a time where I felt lost. I had just walked away from my first job that I worked at for five years. Life felt unstable. I remember a marketing photo from Azusa that featured a ball of rubberbands. The tagline below the ball was, “Prepare to be stretched.”

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Growth is oftentimes not comfortable. Growth can be painful.

Some eleven years later, I feel lost once again. Caught in some sort of cyclical orbit that I cannot break free from. Since college graduation, Fall 2006, I have been trying to get my bearings. Part of that could be cultural, I live in Texas now versus my native California. Things are different here. The other part of that was thinking that God had called me to be a pastor. I had thought that I would go to seminary after college. First seminary I applied at told me I had too much student debt. The second seminary, which accepted me debt and all, was not to be. As I got ready to select my first classes, we ended up pregnant with my son. Any money for schooling vanished.

Where does one go with the path changes? How does one adapt?

I work as an Office Manager by day. Not the first job I would choose for myself, but I do enjoy the work when we are busy. In my eighth year now, I have no room for growth. I feel trapped.

I find myself wondering what that next step is. Where is God calling me to be? I find myself questioning my faith. I know all the right Christian answers, there is just a head-to-heart disconnect.

God constantly reminds me that He is working though. As waves threaten to sink me, He taps me on the shoulder and says, “hey man, I’ve got this.” I just need to believe it.